Angela tightened her fingers around the steering wheel of her black Toyota Corolla. She took in deep breaths, exhaling heavily.
She wasn’t driving. She was parked in Liam’s compound. The gateman had opened the gate for her twenty minutes ago and she was summering up the courage to get out of the car and face Liam with the news she had for him.
She shut her eyes tightly, throwing her head back against the headrest.
She was all nerves.
She could feel her heart racing against her chest.
She checked out her face in the mirror in what would make it the sixth time. Sniffed her armpit. Checked her breath. She was good.
She exhaled heavily.
Drumming her fingers nervously against the wheel, she pressed her palm to her chest “Relax, just go in there and tell him. Better oops than what if’s right?” She pep talked herself.
She breathed in, then exhaled. Feeling determined, she loosened her grip on the steering wheel.
She grabbed her red ankle strap heels from the passenger’s footrest and wore them.
Snatching her phone from the beverage holder, she got out of the car, banging the door behind her.
“Come in, it’s open” Liam’s voice called out.
She let herself into his two-bedroom apartment. She found him sitting at the dining table, talking to someone.
“Hey!” He smiled as she walked up to him.
She smiled back, leaning against his chair. She rested her hand on his shoulder and he reached out his arm and wrapped it around her waist.
“Good afternoon” She waved at the stranger.
“This is my Colleague from work, Stanley. Stanley, Angela, my friend.”
Stanley got to his feet and held out his hand. “Hi,”
Angela shook it.
“Nice to meet you,” he said
“Same here.” She smiled politely.
Stanley dropped his hands to his sides. “I was just leaving__”
“I hope I’m not the one chasing you?”
“Oh no, not at all.” he shook his head. “I have to go shave. The weekend ends today, you know?”
Angela nodded with a smile, and Liam rose to his feet.
“See you around,” he said to Angela and walked out of the house with Liam.
Angela made her way to Liam’s bedroom, sat at the edge of his bed, and began browsing the Bounce News application, an effort to distract her nervous thoughts.
The door pushed open and her heart instantly skipped a bit.
The moment of truth!
“Hey beautiful.” Liam dropped to the bed beside her, pulling her on top of him.
He kissed her softly, and she kissed him back.
He paused to tuck a strand of hair behind her ear. “You look sexy,” he grinned.
“Thank you.” She smiled back.
He turned her over, stretched out her hands above her head, and kissed her deeply.
He slid his hands down her arms, cupped her right breast, and began to kiss her neck, his soft beard brushing lightly against her skin.
“Li_am” she moaned.
Liam pulled her white bodycon top over her head and tossed it to the floor. He unclipped her bra, and her full brown breast came undone before him.
He looked down at them admiringly. Angela lifted his face with both hands. “Liam?” She wanted to tell him.
She had to tell him.
Obliviously, Liam dropped to his side. He turned her to face him and began sucking on her right breast, sensually.
Heck! I’ll just tell him later.
His hand groped the left breast, caressing and tweaking the nipple. He let his focus remain on her breasts, reveling in the pleasure he felt from pleasuring her.
Angela’s inner lips quivered with desire. She wanted him to touch it so badly, but he kept at her breast, intensifying her lust so that her body began to slither like that of a snail.
When he finally lifted his head from her breasts, he took her lips into his and kissed her slowly. Slowly but steadily, he went on and on.
His hand made sure to slap and grope her breast as they continued to kiss.
Angela was drowning in a river of sweetness, she could feel her clitoris aching all so fiercely. So when Liam slid his leg in between her thighs, pressing it against her wetness, she knew she couldn’t wait any longer.
“M-make love to me.” She pleaded against his lips. “Now Liam…”
She reached out for his briefs and began to tug them down his legs. “B-baby pleas-se…”
He let her undo his briefs. He pushed her thighs apart and knelt in between them.
He stripped down her white thong, then her red Giselle skirt. He pushed a pillow under her bum, propping up her waist, and pulled her down to his angle.
Rubbing himself against her moist clitoris, he gently slid into her.
Liam grunted as he felt the warm moist walls of her vulva, tighten around his shaft.
He held her legs apart and began to plunge in and out of her.
She cried in pleasure, eyes shut, lips apart. Her fingers slid down into her thighs and she began to rub herself.
What a view! Liam thought to himself.
He felt his erection growing bigger and harder inside of her.
“b-ba_by” She cried as she felt herself squirt against his pelvis.
Liam thrust faster excitedly.
She squirted again, and he came with her, groaning softly.
He withdrew from her body and fell to the bed beside her. “damn girl! You really do make it rain don’t you?” He was breathing heavily.
She smiled smugly, then cuddled up to him. “Liam, I need to tell you something”
He rubbed her shoulder. “What is it dear?”
“I-I am in love with you!”.. There! she said it. Her body instantly cringed in anticipation.
“What?” Liam exclaimed, leaning backward so that he could look at her face.
“I am in love with you” She repeated, sheepishly lifting her eyes to meet his gaze.
His eyebrows plunged into a frown. “Angela, we had an understanding…”
“I know, but I want things to be different..”
He got out of the bed, picked up his briefs, and wore them to his waist.
Angela pulled the sheets to her chest, sitting upright. She felt sick to her stomach.
Liam had his back to her, he was looking out the window with his hands planted to his hips.
He appeared to be in deep thoughts. Angela waited.
Then, he broke the silence. “I don’t do relationships Angela”
Her heart sunk.
He turned around to face her. “I appreciate you telling me this but I would rather we let things remain the way that there were.”
Her eyes stung. That feeling of rejection, but she wasn’t going to let him see her cry.
She got up from the bed and began to wear her clothes back on her body.
Don’t cry. Don’t cry. She told herself.
“Angela, are you listening to me?”
“It’s fine Liam”. She said amidst the lump in her throat. “I’ll just go”
Liam took two long strides to her side. He tried to hold her.
“Don’t do that” She warned, avoiding his eyes.
He let his hand drop to his side.
She picked up her shoes and snatched her phone from the edge of the bed. She had to leave before the tears came running down her face.
“Angela” Liam lazily called out to her, “it doesn’t have to be this way”.
The sound of the door banging shut was the only response he got.
Angela walked hastily to her car. As soon as she got in, she let out a hushed sob.
She had never been more grateful for her tinted glasses.
She cried for a while, then dialed her best friend’s number.
“Babe, what’s up?” Cynthia answered from the other end.
“Where are you?” Angela cried.
“Angela what is it,” Cynthia asked worriedly.
“Where are you?”
“I’m with Ebuka, we’re making lunch. Wait, where are you?”
Angela sniffed, “Don’t worry, I know he is in town only for a few days, let me not bother you guys”
Cynthia hissed. “Angela forget that talk. Where are you jor?”
“I’m at Liam’s, but I’m headed home now”
“Okay, I’m coming over…” she replied hastily
“How about Ebuka?”
“Don’t worry, I’m coming” She said and hung the call.
Angela wiped her face with the back of her hands, gathered herself together, then drove out of Liam’s compound.
“You’re just gonna leave all these?” Ebuka was asking, slicing onions.
“I’m so sorry baby, Angela didn’t sound good. She needs me”
“I need you too, you know that?”
She got in front of him, wrapping her arms around his waist. She leaned into him and rested her head lightly against his shoulder. “I know baby, I’ll be back, I promise”
She raised her head, looking up at him. “I’ll pass the night, and go to work from here”
Ebuka smiled “sounds good”.
“Mmnh hmmn” She smiled back. “you like that, don’t you?” She placed a kiss on his lips, “I love you”
“I love you too” he replied.
“Okay.” She stepped out of his embrace “I have to go now.” she made her way to the door “bye baby” she called out.
“Bye babe” he replied.
Cynthia was waiting for her at her doorstep. As soon as Angela drove in, Cynthia walked to her car.
“How did you get here so fast?” Angela asked weakly, stepping out of the car.
“His house is not so far from here na“
“Yeah, that’s true.”
They walked to her flat. Angela unlocked the door and both girls went in.
Angela collapsed into the chair, while Cynthia put on the air conditioner then scouted Angela’s fridge for a drink.
She collected a bottle of red wine and fetched two glasses from her kitchen.
She climbed into the couch and poured wine into their glasses, she handed Angela one and held the other…
“Okay, spill. What happened?”
Angela sighed. “I told him o, told him I love him and he just didn’t say anything basically”
She glanced at Cynthia. “I took that chance you know?”
“I know we had agreed on just sex, but I caught feelings. I didn’t plan to. You don’t choose who you fall in love with, right?”
Cynthia nodded empathetically.
Angela sighed. She leaned forward and placed her drink on the table in front of her. “It hurts”
“Come here” Cynthia invited, making her rest her head on her laps. “I’m so sorry, he’ll come around, give him time”
Her eyes stung again. “He doesn’t want me Cynthia__”
“I’m sure he does, he just doesn’t know it yet”
Cynthia stroked her hair. “Things would work out for the best, don’t you worry”
Angela sniffed again, wiping away the tears from her left cheek.
“You’ll be alright” Cynthia encouraged her.
Angela went through the motions in the days that followed. Liam hadn’t called nor texted her. She felt bad and missed him so.
When she met Liam at her boss’s wife’s birthday party, she knew she wasn’t ready for a relationship. She had just come out of a toxic relationship months prior, and she was still licking her wounds. And she told Liam that.
He didn’t mind, he even shared the same views. But a year into been friend’s with benefits, she realized she wanted more. She had gotten to know Liam and grown fond of him.
They were comfortable with each other, had seen each other go through some good and bad times.
She had traveled with him to his village when his mum passed, and he was there when she lost her former job and helped her secure the one she presently had.
They would hang out, attend events together, have deep conversations. So she was almost shocked he did not feel the same way about her. How could none of that had meant anything, anything at all?.
The days rolled into months, but time didn’t make it any easier on her.
Her phone beeped, it was Cynthia. She sent a WhatsApp message.
Angela: “hi dear”
Cynthia: “what are you up to?”
Angela: “just got back from work. lying on the sofa. tired of!”
Angela: “thanks. what’s up? home yet?”
Cynthia: “nah, passed by the Salon, retouching my nails. “
Angela: “aiit. How’s your boss?😏”
Cynthia: “Lol. girl, I’msurviving..”
Angela: “Lol, that’s what matters. brb, someone’s knocking at my door”
Cynthia: “aiit. ltr.”
Angela dropped her phone on the couch, scrambling to her feet. “Coming!” she yelled.
She unlocked her door and held it open. “Liam?!” she exclaimed in shock!
“What are you doing here?”
“Can I come in?. please?”
She stepped aside to let him walk in. Once he was in, she shut the door.
She didn’t know whether to be excited or angry. why is he here? She was confused. She needed to hear this standing, so she folded her arms across her chest.
“Angela, I know that you are upset __”
“Upset?” she snarled. “I am hurt, Liam!”
“And you have every right to be. But I’ve had time to think things through, and I want you back.”
“As what? your fuck buddy?” her tone was sarcastic “I’m done playing that role”
He took a step towards her. “No, as my woman. I miss you, so much. Not the sex, well, that, a lot, but it’s not just that. You get me. We’ve shared great moments and I haven’t been able to feel that with anyone else. I realize now that, it’s you, it has always been you. I love you”.
A small frown creased her forehead. “It took you eight months to realize that?”
He took two steps to stand directly in front of her. He held her hands. “I know that sounds like a long time, but I needed to be sure, to be sure that I could be the man that you deserve, and I’m sure now. Allow me to make it up to you Angela, let’s start all over again”
All she had wished that day she told him how she felt was to hear this. She lived in pain for months after that, and he was only just saying those words. It wasn’t how she wanted it, but somehow, it was enough.
“I don’t know what to say Liam___”
“Do you still love me?” He asked, afraid of what her answer might be.
Angela bit her lower lip, then nodded her head.
He sighed in relief. “Then move in with me”
“I bought a house, move in with me!”
He dropped her arms over his shoulders and pinned his forehead down to hers.
“We’ll be happy,” he promised. “it will be like old times, but better”
“I don’t just want to move in with you Liam….”
“Shhhhh” He placed a finger to her lips “I know” He breathed. Such warm breath, her knees started to wobble and her labia felt moist.
“I won’t play you like that. Okay?”
Nigga just kiss me already!
She nodded in agreement. “Okay”.
Liam slid his tongue between her lips, pressing her body further into his. “god! I missed you” He groaned against her lips.
“I missed you too” She moaned softly, holding tightly unto him.
At that moment, she was happy. Everything felt just right.